I am a HUGE baseball fan. Specifically a Yankees fan but I have a love of the game that trancends teams. I'm not like some fans, who, unless it's "their" team, cannot watch a game. If I'm in a city with a big league team I try to visit the ballpark. American or National league, doesn't make a difference to me. One of my goals in life is to visit all the big-league stadiums. I still have a long way to go. No ballparks on my agenda this year but hey.... you never know.
So far I've been to:
Yankee Stadium- NYC
Shea Stadium - NYC
Fenway Park- Boston
Camden Yards-Baltimore
Jacobs Field-Cleveland
Coors Field-Denver
Citzens Bank Ballpark-Philly
Bank One Ballpark-Phoenix
Wrigley Field-Chicago
Comiskey Park-Chicago
Candlestick Park-SF * now closed
Veterans Stadium-Philly *now closed
Arlington Stadium-Dallas *now closed
I was at Skydome in Toronto & Pac Bell in SF but they were closed as it was winter.
well internet i'm not feeling too much better about things. still lonely, bitter and full of resentment & self pity. on the other hand I got a really cute haircut yesterday.
There's something I want to tell you internet. I know I can tell you and you won't judge me, or try to make me feel better. I know you will just lend an ear and a shoulder to cry on.
Right now I have no life. I have no husband or children (by choice), no significant other (not by choice), not much family (thats for a another time) and a few friends who I dont feel conneccted to at all. I feel very alone internet and it's not such a great place to be. I can't really tell this to anyone else because they just won't understand. It's a big scary world out there and being alone in it is just so draining.
Now I know the difference between being alone and being lonely and right now I feel both ways. And I can't seem to do anything about it. I know WHAT to do, I just can't DO IT right now.
Oh, I'm not about to stick my head in the oven or jump out the window. I know I will feel better, I just don't know when. And until things change I am just going to sit here and feel sorry for myself. Think about the people who have what I want, try to figure out what I've done to be in this situation and maybe just maybe come up with a plan to change it. Or just become even more bitter and resentful. Could go either way right now.
I've spent this cold damp dreary afternoon wandering around the 'net -- and let me tell you internet, you are a weird and wonderful place. Anyway, came across the groovy blog and maybe have to re-think my devotion to Jared Leto.
By far and away the best show on tv right now is "The Shield". The writing is superb, and the acting is outstanding. Glenn Close's character, Monica Rawling is a great addition to an already excellent cast.
If you like cop drama with an edge -- not like that lame ass NYPD Blue -- check this show out!!.
*but were afraid to ask
- Some of my earliest memories are of being in the car with my family.
- My sisters always made me sit in the middle.
- I am the youngest of three girls.
- My best friend, Liz Pyles, died at 24.
- I think of her whenever I smell honeysuckle.
- Im still in touch with her family. Her daughter, Toni, is now 22. Or will be in July. Sometimes I lose track.
- My hair is naturally curly but not naturally highlighted.
- My first concert was YES at MSG in '79. I wore an orange halter top and cowboy hat.
- I always thought I was cool.
- Dammit, I am cool.
- My favorite baseball team is the Yankees but my first baseball game was a Mets game.
- I was 10 years old and got the tickets from saving coupons on the milk cartons.
- Four is my favorite number. I have no idea why.
- No kids for me. Too scared they would turn out like me.
- I have never ridden on a motorcycle.
- Scruffy looking men turn me on.
- Clean cut = boring.
- My parents died three months apart four years ago.
- I think of them everyday and miss them like you wouldn't believe..
- I've lost a lot of people that I loved.
- I get jealous sometimes of my friends whose families are intact.
- I get pissed that mine is not.
- I love going places- I just hate having to get there.
- My cat’s names are Honi & Tiger.
- Tiger is a real beast - he can also be a real pussycat
- I love my cats very much.
- I am terrified of dogs and will cross the street to avoid them. Even if it’s a little Taco Bell dog.
- Speaking of Taco Bell, that's my favorite fast food place. A bean burrito/no onions = yummy!!
- I can kick your ass at Scrabble.
- But I always lose at Uno.
- I do the Sunday Times crossword puzzle in ink.
- By Friday my puzzle page is a mess.
- Ice cream gives me a stomach-ache.
- Taco
- I love music but cannot play an instrument to save my life.
- Or carry a tune for that matter.
- I’m an early bird.
- And I’m always on time.
- My room is hot fuchsia pink.
- I'm grown woman with a hot fuchsia pink bedroom.
- I started smoking when I was 14 -- I still haven’t quit.
- Yes, I know how bad it is, I don’t need you to tell me, thank you.
- I stopped biting my nails five years ago.
- One of my nicknames as a teenager was the “Rock & Roll Outlaw”
- My favorite band was Lynyrd Skynyrd.
- My friend Gary turned me onto them.
- Shortly after he did their plane crashed.
- I have the "Street Survivors" album with the flames on the front.
- It's a collector’s item.
- Or would be if I hadn't opened it, written my name on it and generally ruined it.
- I am very independent.
- I like my independence, maybe a bit too much.
- I really, really hate asking people for favors.
- I’ve always lived in an apt, never a house.
- I'm a city girl.
- Clowns freak me out.
- That has nothing to do with me being a city girl.
- Street corner Santa's freak me out too.
- I lost my virginity at 15.
- We were in love.
- No, really we were.
- We were together for six months before doing “the deed.”
- I was not his first.
- I was quite jealous of the girl that was.
- We were together for about a year and half after that.
- Sex was great.
- I curse like a sailor.
- With my mouth, I can make a sailor blush.
- When did sailors get such a bad rap anyway?
- I can also burp at will & really loud too!
- I've always felt more comfortable being one of the boys.
- I loved "Sex & The City"
- Now I love "The Wire"
- And I don’t even have HBO.
- I think indoor plumbing is in the top ten of most important inventions.
- I've been working for the same company since 1989.
- I've met some great people.
- Most of them left the company ages ago.
- Growing up I wanted to be either: a writer, DJ, lawyer or long distance truck driver.
- I do none of those things.
- Thanks to my I-River I get to be my own DJ.
- But that's not what I had in mind.
- When I was a kid and would hear adults say they didn’t drink I always wondered "don’t they get thirsty?"
- I got kicked out of Girl Scouts for being a bad influence.
- My mother was not happy about that.
- I am named after my great-grandmother on my father's side.
- I possess a driver's license but haven't driven in years.
- I failed my road test twice.
- My father taught at a driving school part-time.
- For his full-time job he was a chemist.
- I sucked at chemistry.
- I have a crush on someone who is SO NOT INTO ME.
- If I had three wishes I would always use one to ask for more wishes.
- I can't believe I killed a whole afternoon doing this list.
- I've been to
- I don’t think I'll be going back any time soon.
- I would love to go to
- I have a great sense of humor but suck at telling jokes.
- I’m sure I will think of 100 other things after I post this list
- 'Cause I’m like that.
My friend Kat sent this to me, it certainly made me smile
THIRTY LINES TO MAKE YOU SMILE
1.. My husband and I divorced over religious differences. He thought he was God and I didn't.
2.. I don't suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it.
3.. I Work Hard Because Millions On Welfare Depend on Me!
4.. Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them.
5.. I used to have a handle on life, but it broke.
6.. Don't take life too seriously; No one gets out alive.
7.. You're just jealous because the voices only talk to me.
8.. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder.
9.. Earth is the insane asylum for the universe.
10.. I'm not a complete idiot -- Some parts are missing.
11.. Out of my mind. Back in five minutes.
12. NyQuil, the stuffy, sneezy, why-the-heck-is-the-room-spinning medicine.
13.. God must love stupid people; He made so many.
14.. The gene pool could use a little chlorine.
15.. Consciousness: That annoying time between naps.
16.. Ever stop to think, and forget to start again?
17.. Being "over the hill" is much better than being under it!
18.. Wrinkled Was Not One of the Things I Wanted to Be When I Grew up.
19.. Procrastinate Now!
20.. I Have a Degree in Liberal Arts; Do You Want Fries With That?
21.. A hangover is the wrath of grapes.
22.. A journey of a thousand miles begins with a cash advance.
23.. Stupidity is not a handicap. Park elsewhere!
24..They call it PMS because MadCow Disease was already taken.
25..He who dies with the most toys is nonetheless dead.
26..A picture is worth a thousand words, but it uses up three thousand times the memory.
27..Ham and eggs. A day's work for a chicken, a lifetime commitment for a pig.
28.. The trouble with life is there's no background music.
29.. The original point and click interface was a Smith and Wesson.
30.. I smile! because I don't know what the hell is going on.
- I'm completely in favor of the separation of Church and State. My idea is that these two institutions screw us up enough on their own, so both of them together is certain death.
What a beautiful movie! I can't believe I hadn't seen it before. The animation, the color, the story, the use of the weather/seasons as a metaphor for the cirlce of life, love, loss.... All this in 1 hour & 7 minutes. Wow.
This weekend was pretty good, it never really rained as the weather people had predicted. Gee, the weather people were wrong.... how come I'm not shocked? These are people that get paid thousands upon thousands of $$$ to do their job correctly only about 50% of the time. They have all this sophisticated equipment (the doppler 6000), charts, graphics, bells & whistles and yet.... If I only did my job right half the time I would not have a job.
The kids came over, we all went to dinner. It's amazing how totally different the kids act around their parents (like real brats) but are so good when the parents leave. I love the fact that the kids are real comfortable staying with me. The hours passed quickly enough and they didn't terrorize my cats too much so all in all a good experience.
The way my life has been going lately if I didn't have bad luck I'd have no luck at all so it being Fri. the 13th doesnt scare me in any way. I mean, it's a Friday, how scary can that be? Maybe I should walk under a couple of ladders, or jump in front of some black cats, maybe that will reverse the curse.
Speaking of curses, I read an amusing line about the Red Sox. It said "There was no curse, the Sox just sucked for 87 years" Pretty funny. It still hurts to think about the Yanks losing the ALCS to them last year, especially after being up 3 games to none. Then 3 games to one. Then... well you get the idea.
Why do people like Michael McDonald? There's only one song of his I like "I Keep Forgetting." Other than that.... bleck!!
Gonna watch my friends kids (6 & 10) tomorrow night, I rented Bambi. I don't remember seeing it as a child, although I'm sure I must have? There's so much of my childhood I don't know or remember and there's really not too many people that can fill me in. Anyway, back to Bambi-watching: does watching animated forest critters get blown to smithereens qualify as quality time? I sure hope so. I usually have an idea or two of something to do with the kids, I try to make coming to my house a highlight, but I can't seem to come up with anything that holds my interest, much less theirs. They like coming downtown since they don't usually get to do that with their parents, but I dunno.... especially since I have to run errands downtown in the morning. I guess I can play it by ear.
I caught the last episode of "SATC" on TBS the other night.... was I the only one who was not happy with that ending? It was sooo sappy... and "SATC" was so NOT sappy. I saw the alternate endings and they all sucked too.
Well the POS HP I bought to replace the other POS HP got returned on Sat. Why? Because the POS HP didn't work -- and HP Customer Service rep (the 8th circle of hell) had the gall, the gall I say, to tell me "You must've broke it." LOVELY. Make a fucking crappy product, then accuse the customer breaking it, when it's not out of the box for 5 minutes. I bought an EMachine and that seems to be working beautifully. Thanks Gateway! And just for good measure, the HP Scanner I bought, also a POS, scanned one picture and then didnt work anymore. Instead of stressing out, I just trotted to Target & got my $$ back. I
"If you don't risk anything, you risk even more" Erica Jong
Computer is dead. That D-E-A-D as a doornail. Ran to CompUSA at lunchtime & bought another HP. At least this time I got the extended warranty. And I had to buy a new Boggle disk, as the other one was destroyed. Let's face it, I'm not using the computer to cure cancer, I just want to scan my photos, play games and mess around on the 'net!
One of my favorite songs of all time....
Never forget the first time I saw Bob Seger & he did this song. Absolutely awesome!
On a long and lonesome highway, east of omaha.
You can listen to the engine moaning out it’s one lone song
You can think about woman, or the girl you knew the night before,
But your thoughts will soon be wandering, the way they always do.
When your riding sixteen hours and there’s nothing much to do
And you don’t feel much like riding, you just wish the trip was through.
Say, here I am, on the road again. there I am, up on the stage.
Here I go, playing star again.
There I go, turn the page.
Well you walk into a restaurant, strung out from the road,
You can feel the eyes upon you as your shaking off the cold
You pretend it doesn’t bother you, but you just want to explode.
Most times you can’t hear em talk, other times you can.
Oh the same old cliche, as that woman on her a man
You always see my number, you don’t dare make a stand.
Here I am, on the road again. there I am, up on the stage.
Here I go, playing star again.
There I go, turn the page.
Out there in the spotlight your a million miles away,
Every ounce of energy, you try and give away,
As the sweat pours out your body like the music that you play.
Later in the evening as you lie awake in bed,
With the echo from the amplifiers ringing in your head,
You smoke the days last cigarette, remembering what she said.
Now here I am, on the road again. there I am, up on the stage.
Here I go, playing star again.
There I go, turn the page.
Here I am, on the road again. there I am, up on the stage.
Ah here I go, playing star again.
There I go, there I go.
Very frustrating weekend. Bought a scanner combo and right before I had it hooked up my computer crashed. Nothing, and I mean, nothing is working. And the technical support.... HA! $40 frigging dollars to tell me to push the F10 button. Honey I was doing that for FREE!!!!! And now I find out the machine does not come with a recovery disk, I was supposed to make me own. Give me a break!! If I have to buy a computer I'm going Mac. Screw the PC. Screw HP.
