There's something I want to tell you internet. I know I can tell you and you won't judge me, or try to make me feel better. I know you will just lend an ear and a shoulder to cry on.
Right now I have no life. I have no husband or children (by choice), no significant other (not by choice), not much family (thats for a another time) and a few friends who I dont feel conneccted to at all. I feel very alone internet and it's not such a great place to be. I can't really tell this to anyone else because they just won't understand. It's a big scary world out there and being alone in it is just so draining.
Now I know the difference between being alone and being lonely and right now I feel both ways. And I can't seem to do anything about it. I know WHAT to do, I just can't DO IT right now.
Oh, I'm not about to stick my head in the oven or jump out the window. I know I will feel better, I just don't know when. And until things change I am just going to sit here and feel sorry for myself. Think about the people who have what I want, try to figure out what I've done to be in this situation and maybe just maybe come up with a plan to change it. Or just become even more bitter and resentful. Could go either way right now.
