I'm obsessed with the HS Sweetheart. I can't help it. I cannot stop thinking about him, can't get him out of my head. I had another one of those "Ross-intensive" dreams last night and man, these dreams stick to me harder than the 20 lbs. I need to lose. It doesn't help that today is Valentine's Day. This is where we stand: absolutely fucking nowhere. I sent a truncated truncated version of the letter a few days ago & he hasn't responded. What I even want to accomplish with this I'm not sure. You know what? Who am I kidding? I know what I want to accomplish: I want him to email me back that yes, he thinks of me all the time and often cries himself to sleep because he can't have me. Then we will reunite, fall deeply in love, again, and this time live happily ever after, the end.
And still I wonder why my life fails to live up to my expectations?
The only thing that will get my mind off of him is if my Berger cookies come today (yeah, so much for losing those 20 lbs.) (fuck you, it's Valentines Day) (and I'm alone) (and my mother died on Valentines Day)(and it snowed today).
Cupid draw back your bow
And let your arrow go
Straight to my lover's heart for me, for me
Cupid please hear my cry
And let your arrow fly
Straight to my lover's heart for me
Now I don't mean to be bother to you
But I'm in distress
There's danger of me losing all of my happiness
For I love a girl who doesn't know I exist
And this you can fix So...
Cupid draw back your bow
And let your arrow go
Straight to my lover's heart for me, nobody but me
Cupid please hear my cry
And let your arrow fly
Straight to my lover's heart for me
Now, Cupid if your arrow make her love strong for me
I promise I wll love her until eternity
I know between the two of us her heart we can steal
help me if you will So...
Cupid draw back your bow
And let your arrow go
Straight to my lover's heart for me, nobody but me
Cupid please hear my cry
And let your arrow fly
Straight to my lover's heart for me
Now, Cupid
don't you hear me
calling you
I need you
Cupid
help me
I need you
Cupid
