Why am I finding everything to be so difficult lately? I mean, more than usual. I have no energy, patience or desire to be around people. And I'm referring to people that I usually like. Sometimes I feel like if I never left the house or spoke to another person that would be ok. I know it wouldn't be but that doesn't stop me from thinking it. I'm so mentally and physically exhausted. Every day is a struggle to get out the door (never mind finding something to wear) and every night is a relief when I can come home and lock the door and world out. I resent the phone and any intrusion on my time. The happy face I feel compelled to don when I leave the house is getting harder and harder to maintain.
I know, boo-fucking-hoo. Life's a bitch and then you die, huh? I should count my blessings and all that crap. And maybe tomorrow things will be easier and I will be grateful. But today? Not so much.
- Noojes had this to say:
Hey hang in there...time heals all
- 5:25 AM
- Lisa Ann had this to say:
thanks for the encouraging words. i hate feeling so... crappy.
- 9:34 AM